Entrepreneur

I have insanely ambitious dreams. I have a business that everyone connection i have ever made has been hyping up. The business has been delayed quite a bit due to my laziness. I also have been wanting to learn how to produce music (i make up songs on piano everyday) on music software but have also been just unmotivated. Life sucks and I always want to keep pushing. I want to do ridiculously hard things to help. At one point boxing really helped me stay motivated in life but I later got injured. I once even tried to get a therapist scheduled and only ended up getting one session done. There was a point at when I played tennis i would have this insane drive to get up after school each day and practice. during that time, I always felt like i was on edge with an insane unstoppable drive and now I have lost it. Now I find it hard to do daily activities and I still haven't given up. I am currently trying to read atomic habits at the moment. I would also like to mention that a couple weeks ago my friend asked me to start a t-shirt business with him. I helped him an insane amount. just out of the blue i manage to spend 6-7 hours right after school to work on the company (I would get home at 10pm dude). I feel like I had accountability and that helped a lot. But now I have just lost motivation. Someone please help me.