I work as a Junior Python Dev. at a company for over a year now, almost a year and a half, I'm based in UK, London. Since they hired me, I've been working alone on a project, an AI/Data Science project, using technologies I've never used before, in an area I've never worked on. I was given the task to develop it, with no specific deadline but to make progress.
I thought, okay, great, I'll have something new to learn. It was good for a while, it worked for a few months, and then they assigned me another project to work on. This another project is also full of new technologies I've never used before. So, I'm working on two projects, and I faced more and more challenges because, as I mentioned, many things were new and still are. I asked for help several times, but fundamentally, I never received help because, as it turned out, there's no one in the company who understands this specifically AI-related field. I found out later that they would like to sell this product (that I've been developing on my own) which to me is kind of insane since I'm just a junior and never did something like this before...
I always got the response to try to solve it on my own because they couldn't help. So, I tried to do it alone, lots of attempts, research, rewriting, testing, and I managed to complete about 90% of the project, but I got stuck. I don't know how to finish it, and I'm not getting any help. I feel like I'm starting to hate programming because of this. The worst part is that since I didn't finish it, since I got stuck, I was told to decide whether I can finish the app or not because if not, they have to let it go, and that would be quite bad... Is this normal or I'm just at the wrong company? Salary is also really low with no benefits, the only good "benefit" is that it is full remote.
I always hear that my performance is very good, my work is appreciated, and people enjoy working with me. However, because of these, I fear that they might part ways with me... although, as I think about it, maybe it would be for the best? Some senior developer friends of mine have told me that I shouldn't have accepted this job offer in the first place, but unfortunately, there were no other options at that time.
My first job was like yours and looking back I can tell you for certain that you desperately need senior guidance more than you think you do (and preferably in person) and this company isn't going to give you that. I'd just stick it out while applying elsewhere so you can get a job where you will get more attention. I know it feels bad to see all your work go to waste after all this time, but if that happens, it's the fault of the company, not you. You asked for help, they didn't provide it.
And, side note, projects get scrapped all the time; that's the nature of R&D. You shouldn't beat yourself up over it even if the project was going great. Unfortunately, that's just how it goes sometimes.