I'm an immigrant working in the USA, I came here because of the promise of a better tomorrow, a meritocracy, a seat at the table at big tech, and for a while it felt real but then my company was acquired by a larger entity and it all went to shit, now I'm in a race to show I'm the most competent and dedicated person with the most technological knowledge to keep my job and not get layed off.
If I ask my manager or my director a question or challenge their thought process I get called into a 1 on 1 meeting where I'm told I'm a great asset to the team but me asking questions of them in a team setting sets a bad example, and my questions aren't in bad faith infact in the meeting I was lauded for asking the right questions, but being pulled aside and being asked to kiss the ring felt disgusting.
At one point in my career I cared about what I did and who I worked for I felt pride over my product and my team, and all I feel now is shame to be associated with my company, I feel disgusted with myself that I work not for my customers but for shareholder value.
So I guess my question if any is are there still companies that exist in the USA or outside that still give a fuck about what they're doing and not just inflate that companies value so it can be sold or keep the stock price going up.
I would love to live and work somewhere where my value isn't determined by how much money I van make or how much shareholder value I increase, I wouldn't have to worry about a visa and if I can/will be kicked out if I'm no longer employed.
I could go back home but the work culture there is atrocious it was the reason why I had left, I lasted 5 months and I couldn't take it and put in my 2 weeks to go to the US for a Masters degree in Computer Sciences.
I'm sorry that this turned into more of a rant than anything else but I'm at a point where I don't really know what I want to do anymore, any advice or conversation is appreciated.
IDK if this would be viable with an H1 visa and I've seen many other options I'll be looking into, but here's what I normally tell people in this position: small businesses are built different
They're harder to find, they usually don't pay amazingly, but they're way more human. It's not all run through spread sheets, you work for humans who get to know you and (can sometimes) actually be like a family...(If they say that phrase it's a red flag though)
It's hit or miss, you likely would be working on legacy stuff or have to wear many hats... But it's work where you know what you're doing and who you're doing it for
It really depends on the business.
I worked for two smaller businesses (team of ≤ 10 software developers). One was mismanaged, ran by very unpleasant people, and abusive towards employees, resulting in a huge turnover and a "dead sea effect". The other company got government grants because the owner's relative was a politician, and had ridiculous surveillance software on developers' machines.
Ironically, the most "human" and enjoyable work I did was working on internal legacy software and code rewrites for a huge corporation before and during their move towards agile and modern "conveyorized" approach to software.
Oh absolutely... There's tons of petty tyrants out there too, which is different, but also bad or even worse. They might also be just staffing something just as soul crushing too, so it could just be worse in every regard
But small business means your boss is probably there to stay. Ideally, you meet the owner in your interview, often they're the same person. But if you find someone loyal to their people, you can actually give them your loyalty and they'll see you as a person
Yep I used to work for a far better environment before the acquisition and would love to ho back to that kind of company, but it's increasingly difficult to do now a days.
Yep... My first "career" job was for a mid sized company. In my onboarding they gave me my employee number but said "you'll never need this, here you're a name, not a number". One time I emailed security saying I forgot my badge because it was with my lunch, and one of the founders called me up and gave me his prepackaged lunch because he said he usually doesn't get through them all. When we closed a big deal, they called us all upstairs to have champagne during the workday. Our mission was unambiguously to help people
Then we got acquired... They gave me my new employee ID and told me I'd be using it for everything. They just milked our contracts and refused wages until we all left
And unfortunately, mid sized companies can give an equally good experience with much better pay and job security... But they're being bought out to secure contracts and gutted at an insane rate.
It's late stage capitalism... If you want to keep growing but you've already destroyed your ability to complete, buy them out to take over their contracts