Where are you from? Wildly guessing NZ?
Alfiegerner
What add on do you use on kodi out of interest. I've been on Ezra for a couple of years.
Same, real debrid or premiumize on kodi makes downloading mostly unnecessary. Occasionally I get something a bit niche I need to hunt down on torrent or Usenet, very rarely.
I've been in holes similar to this, eventually finding the right medication is the only thing that lifted me out. Once I thought I was gone forever, could hardly talk, same as you head full of memories of the person I used to be. But the right anti-depressant (and getting off anti-psychotics) pushed the right brain buttons and I was able to get out.
Things can take time to change, but they can and will change, I'm sure of it. This isn't your fault, there's a new you in your future.
Same, old laptop 8th gen Intel i7, TPU, Hass and multiple other dockers including wyze bridge with 6 cheap wyze cameras.
It's the only way I've found to have a shared shopping list we can also use via Google nest devices too - any other options?
I stream via debrid now directly on Kodi, works really well and nice and lightweight. Nice not to be storing TBs of video anymore.
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