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Yeah that's what I'm thinking too. For now, I'll have to use my old bicycle again and I'd be really surprised if someone were to steal them as they are much worse lol. It just sucks. rip 300€

Kinda, yeah. In a nice way but yeah. Anyway, I need to go to bed now. The time where I miss her the most. Her not lying next to me is just a horrible feeling. But I think it helped me a little, talking with someone who goes through the same rn. You know that there always are people going through that, but at least I don't know anyone. Actually feeling that youre not alone is nice. So thank you for that. We can do it. Even for me it's difficult to believe, but we will get over it. Eventually.

On a completely unrelated note, I need to vent about something. I just need to tell someone what happened to me. I just returned from a long trip. I had my bicycle locked at the train station for 3 days. When I came back, my wheels were stolen. Whyyyy? I had to walk home now. And I need my bicycle tomorrow. I need it all the time. That's the first time that something was stolen from me. It feels so bad. Why do people do that. That made me lose all faith in society rn. Whyyyy

Wait why do you feel guilt? What was the intention?

Oh yeah, how much I can feel that urge... Yk when I texted with her, I did ask her if she is happier now and if she wants to text me and so on. The same that you want to ask really. You can imagine how she replied. I still miss her so much, especially during the evening and night when I'm not distracted by something else

Yeah, I feel that. I guess we will see. Eventually. Now I think about how I discover these messages years in the future when everything has changed. That will be fun

Yeah exactly, it simply is the worst.

Yk, one the one side I know that I most likely will meet someone as nice or nicer again but at the same time I'm still afraid that I won't. It just sounds impossible, even though I know it's not. It's weird. But thank you for that offer, seriously. Same goes for you too, of course.

I wish I could tell you how that works... But apparently it does. There are probably reasons that she doesn't know herself. It also took her a while to figure out where the "wrong feeling" came from. It really sucked for me too, feeling that something is wrong it the relationship without having any idea why or what. Turns out it was the lack of love I received. Reviving the relationship was also my idea as soon as I knew. But she did not want to. And I realized that if the other person isn't interested in saving it, you alone have no chance.

Now I'm just afraid that I won't find someone that nice again. And if I ever do, when?

Ugh good question. In the beginning I still texted her. I didn't want to but I was unable to resist the urge. I always challenged myself to not text her for as long as I could, usually a few days. About a month later I finally stopped to when she told me it'd be better for the both of us. And I already knew that she was right. To this day, I never texted her again even though the urge is still very present sometimes. Every time I want to, I just think about that it won't do nothing. I don't want to be together with a person who doesn't love me.

I did recently text her parents again though. I basically lived with her family and I miss them too, a lot. Just thanked them for everything and kinda said goodbye. At least until I get over this, then we (me and her dad) might meet again since we share a hobby that we want to do together.

We split because, long story short, she discovered that she doesn't love me anymore. No specific reason. At least she couldn't tell me one. She didn't want me to be completely gone, she wanted to be normal friends but not in a relationship. I told her that this is impossible for me, it would destroy me even more, seeing someone I love who doesn't love me back.

Hey, I'm going through something very similar rn. She broke up with me about 5 months ago and it still hurts so much. I can't stop thinking about her. You're not alone. I wish I had a cure, but just like you, I don't.

Huh satisfactory music?

Works fine here. But I'm not on lemmy.ca sooo