MonkeMischief

joined 2 years ago
[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 19 points 3 days ago (4 children)

I love 3D art, and I want to make games eventually. I remember using my cracked copy of 3D Studio MAX to experiment and try things "just to see real quick!" when I was supposed to be doing more boring homework like report writing.

I even kept my obsession after a community college semester with the most joy-killing professor on the subject you could ever meet.

I dropped out of college because of life and found Blender, and kept learning as much as I could because I thought it was my ticket to a real job that didn't involve "How may I help you?" every single day. It was going to be my way out.

Well, just a year or so ago I FINALLY got paid to do a freelance character sculpt. And...It took way longer than I hoped, I hammered on it like every single day, and I haven't touched Blender since wrapping that project.

I really want to get back to modeling, but it made me realize I definitely don't want to be an "industry" 3D artist making stuff to someone else's exacting specifications for money. I still would love to sell a game on Steam or something some day.

...But I put a lot of skill points into these skills already, following what I love...so I'm kinda lost. Business and work is a realm that just makes me nauseous and anxious to think about as the water keeps rising, so to speak.

So I guess I'm saying: don't make the thing you love your lifeline to surviving capitalist society, because unless that thing is "making money", doing it for money or clientelle chokes the joy out of most human endeavors.

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 2 points 4 days ago

I remember that! Kids going down slides and playing with bottles that...looked like fish? O.o

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 9 points 4 days ago

If I watched this at all, it'd just be to see if I could fill out my bingo card, here. . .

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 2 points 4 days ago

Legally speaking? Mountains of evidence, too!

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 10 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago) (2 children)

I consider myself pretty knowledgeable with most computing tasks, not particularly great with basic spreadsheets, but unless there's some kind of usable frontend to reliably manage a database, I mostly see databases as:

"A magic box that holds tons of cryptic information, would be tedious to open, risky to edit, risky to backup or migrate or update, and could corrupt at any moment."

Maybe I should put more effort into learning DBs besides initializing them in a Docker compose and praying, but for human readable information that's meant to be shared, I think you're bang on the money when it comes to why spreadsheets are still so popular!

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 2 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago)

I mean yeah, right after they were screeching about "top secret FEMA camps that are really death camps" and then turned around and started throwing immigrants into cages in actual secret death camps in random countries.

Any minute now I expect them to ban prayer in school, fake a moon landing, and start trying to spray chemical trails from planes.

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 3 points 4 days ago

If evil has one redeeming quality, it's the inevitability of turning on itself. I feel like we're already starting to see some of that happening.

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 6 points 4 days ago

shouldn't be tolerated from our politicians.

That's what's getting me so bad about all of this. Constantly.

There was some sort of facade of gentlemanly/ladyly respect in politics before, but now there's just a klan of bullies who say and do whatever they want and say "So, what are you gonna do about it?"

And the opposition can seemingly do naught but shrug and hand over all of our lunch money.

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 10 points 6 days ago (1 children)

I'd really like to know if there's any practical guide on testing backups without requiring like, a crapton of backup-testing-only drives or something to keep from overwriting your current data.

Like I totally understand it in principle just not how it's done. Especially on humble "I just wanna back up my stuff not replicate enterprise infrastructure" setups.

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 23 points 6 days ago (3 children)

"National Security" sounds like it's actually a bunker he's gonna hide in after he starts a major war, and ponders taking the easy way out when it's finally surrounded by the Allies.

(Maybe I'm mixing up my history, it all sounds so similar...)

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 2 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago)

First, we'll deep dive into "What is a variable?", then together we'll examine "Who sets a variable?", "What is an LLM?" and finally, "Who would set a variable without using an LLM?"

You'll be a coding pro in no time!

How does that sound?

(I felt gross writing this lmao)

[–] MonkeMischief@lemmy.today 2 points 6 days ago (1 children)

Fair.

I'm struggling with that a lot right now. I'm not even "old", I'm a martial artist, I'm a computer graphics artist, I want to design games, but I'm constantly feeling too slow to handle everything.

Am I getting dumber? Am I getting slower? Why is it taking longer to remember things?

And I feel my sense of imagination and wonder is slipping, being replaced more and more by "impending threats" anxiety: "Oh shit, food prices are doing what now?" "Wait what fundamental freedom are they now 'cracking down' on?"

A lot of artists and gamedevs and tabletop game masters all say they have "too many ideas." Lately I just see fog and don't know how to engage my creativity.

I wonder if COVID stole my brain power. :(

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