Nytefyre

I believe I am exhausted. I got exhausted of causes when a friend dropped me or given me a preluding sign that our friendship was at an end when they told me I was 'hopeless' that I wasn't jumping up and down for feminism.

It's like, I know what I stand for and I do want to see more of and support the rights of women. The problem is that, with a lot of causes like feminism, it's kind of mushy. It isn't straightforward, it is loud, it is a winding path. I just feel like just simply supporting the rights of women isn't enough with it and that there's something more.

And that I'm expected to devote all of my time and energy and effort to it just to prove it. The least I can do and have done anymore, is whenever an issue involving women comes up and someone is attempting to shut them down, I'll speak my mind of it.

But I've got a life too to live here and I don't want my identity tied up in whatever I believe in politically or socially. I see so many people seemingly burnt out or mislead in causes where it's all about just being loud and proud. What good is being loud and proud if there's no directive?

And that's the key problem I have with a majority of protests. I don't think going out of my way to stand somewhere waving a sign for hours is what I think a good way to spend time with. I believe we should protest smarter by fighting with facts and being more focused than just allowing intrusive and irrelevant directives take hold of certain causes.

Though I don't think a lot of people are ready for that so I just bow myself out and whenever I do, people point at me saying I no longer support the cause and that I must be with the other side. Bullshit that I am, I'm just too tired to fucking activist.

Mine is - Algorithm. Ever since people have learned some of the inner workings of how content is suggested to them, that became the new spammed word that easily got exhausted within the week of it being used.

Yeah, an algorithm does indeed pitch you things of what to watch or listen to. But there's more going on than that, but people all the time just stop at that word and expect everyone to suddenly understand it. Sadly, most people just buy it at face value.

Seeing all that you grew up with, pass away. With the recent passing of James Earl Jones, I've said that the world is losing more color with the likes of him that passed.

Over the years, I've found that the things I've grown up with to know about with what they've done, what they've influenced and the chain of events that were caused because of them in a positive light, just vanish.

And I like others, have the unfortunate reality to hear and see them go away. Akira Toriyama, Kentaro Miura, Satoru Iwata, Leiji Matsumoto .etc

Those are few of the names I've listed as examples where moving on in life without them in the world is just a bit hard to get accustomed to. I mean, I guess the silver lining is that we'll be joining them someday soon since that's the cycle of life for you. But for now it just currently sucks.

I have a habit of beginning nearly any other thing with 'So'.

Beginning to have thoughts now on just donating away my stream sticks and use my TV in the living room as a back up incase the one I have in my bedroom dies.

I got into streaming sticks about a few months ago, I have an ONN brand one and Amazon one that's 4k. And I know the appeal of them and the appeal is nice. It makes you feel like you're watching cable television without subscribing to an overpriced cable subscription. It was nice.

It was nice until everytime I go to have some sit down time in the living room than my bedroom to watch something there, I turn on the ONN stick, I try watching a single YouTube video.

30 second ad. Skipped it. 4 minutes into the video - another ad. And this will happen the longer the video is where it's just ad, ad, ad.

Between the two, only the ONN stick has a chance of being rooted but I'm not sure I want to risk bricking or ruining it. The Amazon one cannot be rooted which is a shame.

So yeah, not really digging stream sticks as much as I like because of this. I immediately went back to my bedroom to watch on the PC since I have adblock.