RileyIsBad

joined 1 year ago
[–] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 3 points 9 months ago

Safety absolutely plays a role there, there have been instances where I've made brief contact with my abusers and it causes hardcore instability, but that's to be expected in those kinds of scenarios. But otherwise knowing that I'm a safe distance away from them helps so much.

I'm very proud of being able to stay there, especially since I get to live with people i know genuinely care about me and contribute to the healing process.

Work definitely gets affected by it though, I don't have that feeling of safety at my work unfortunately (am publicly trans in a pretty transphobic community) so that stress definitely gets me to fall back into the same feelings and coping mechanism from my previous situation.

[–] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 6 points 9 months ago (2 children)

CPTSD is also something i struggle with due to a traumatic childhood, but for the most part I'm out of that situation.

Knowing that what's done is done really helps, it's in the past and I'm safe now (at least relatively).

I'm still living in the same house i was abused in but my abusers are gone, so being able to reclaim that space and objectively acknowledge that I've progressed as a person helps put distance between what happened and what is happening.

Also learning to recognize that the way i was treated affected how i treat myself, and catching when i start letting the internal voice of those people dictate my life. Knowing what is genuinely your thoughts and feelings and the ones that aren't is extremely helpful, though very difficult.

Getting better is hard and neverending, but it lets you appreciate what little good you do have going on.

[–] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 5 points 11 months ago

Plot twist, it's foreshadowing

 
[–] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I probably contribute like half the hours Fallout 4 is getting, once you go through the pain of getting modding working how you want, it's so easy to sink another hundred or so hours into it.

Lil Steamie Decky is hauling ass with 200 plugins just fine (assuming you don't mind cranking everything to low settings, but you won't notice it much on that display)

[–] RileyIsBad@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago

I'd also like to know, some I'm having issues with my Bluetooth headset cutting in and out in Linux, but has no issues when I boot into windows

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by RileyIsBad@beehaw.org to c/animals@beehaw.org
 

his body too small for his gotdang head

 
 
 

my little (okay quite large) baby boy geiger, in one of his many iconic poses