Just leave this poor guy alone. You cheated. Move on, grow as a person, and don’t disrespect someone’s trust like that again. He’ll never fully be able to trust you again. You are getting the same responses every time you post about this shit. If you are looking for absolution, you’ll likely not find it here.
Perhaps Ashley Madison has a lemmy instance where you can discuss this with fellow cheaters.
I don’t have much wisdom to provide. I’ve felt like something was wrong with me for a number of years now. I would experience things differently, or at least that is what I was told, than reality. Things like being slighted by friends, being excluded, being left behind. They tell me it’s all in my head, but even today, I’m not so sure.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 a few years ago, after an involuntary stay at an inpatient facility. For the years leading up to the diagnosis, doctors just kept proscribing random antidepressants in increasing dosages that did not help. With one doctor, it got to the point where they were suggesting that ECT might be what I needed.
The Bipolar 2 diagnosis helped make sense of many of the symptoms that I have. While things have improved, they have not really gotten better. I’m lucky that I have my son, who lives with me. Without him, I’d be alone. The few friends I have live an hours drive away, and I am not close with them anymore. We rarely speak. I’ve pushed plenty of people away.
I can’t help but feel that I am the problem.
My son and I went to Pride yesterday, and I held back tears a few times, seeing groups of friends celebrating. I don’t know what that’s like, not anymore.
Yeah, I feel like the “crazy” person in almost any situation I am in.