SayJess

joined 2 years ago
[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 16 points 1 week ago

I don’t have much wisdom to provide. I’ve felt like something was wrong with me for a number of years now. I would experience things differently, or at least that is what I was told, than reality. Things like being slighted by friends, being excluded, being left behind. They tell me it’s all in my head, but even today, I’m not so sure.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 a few years ago, after an involuntary stay at an inpatient facility. For the years leading up to the diagnosis, doctors just kept proscribing random antidepressants in increasing dosages that did not help. With one doctor, it got to the point where they were suggesting that ECT might be what I needed.

The Bipolar 2 diagnosis helped make sense of many of the symptoms that I have. While things have improved, they have not really gotten better. I’m lucky that I have my son, who lives with me. Without him, I’d be alone. The few friends I have live an hours drive away, and I am not close with them anymore. We rarely speak. I’ve pushed plenty of people away.

I can’t help but feel that I am the problem.

My son and I went to Pride yesterday, and I held back tears a few times, seeing groups of friends celebrating. I don’t know what that’s like, not anymore.

Yeah, I feel like the “crazy” person in almost any situation I am in.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 14 points 1 week ago

Just leave this poor guy alone. You cheated. Move on, grow as a person, and don’t disrespect someone’s trust like that again. He’ll never fully be able to trust you again. You are getting the same responses every time you post about this shit. If you are looking for absolution, you’ll likely not find it here.

Perhaps Ashley Madison has a lemmy instance where you can discuss this with fellow cheaters.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago (1 children)

It works on Voyager on iOS. Or at least for me it does.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 12 points 1 week ago

There are a growing number of people that are truly believing that some sort of armed resistance is what is needed. But, who wants to be the first to take up arms (or otherwise show a violent resistance)?

The US government and military have shown that they have no qualms about violently suppressing peaceful protests. Imagine what they would do to those that showed even an inkling of violence. Those who stand up first would be nothing but cannon fodder.

Who wants to be the first? To be martyred? There aren’t enough people who have nothing else left to lose. Not yet.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 17 points 1 week ago

Lately…eat out of boredom. I’ve been trying to curb it, but not succeeding. I’ve got 8 days off starting tomorrow. Not looking good for my waistline. 😔

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 2 weeks ago

Not good. Pretty sure I’ve lost my social circle. It’s my fault, for the most part. I think I’m better off alone, as far as having friends goes. I still have my son, who lives with me, so I’m not totally alone. As long as I have him, that’s all I need.

I asked for the dose of one of my meds to be increased. We’ll see if that will help things at all. Probably not. It would be nice to not really feel things, or at least feel them less. Like tranquilized in a way.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 9 points 2 weeks ago

That’s totally fine. He’ll blame the “radical left”. Let him. Anything to get under his skin would be great. Knocking out his main propaganda tool would be sweet. It wouldn’t change a damn thing, but it would be so satisfying hearing him and his sycophants cry about it.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 38 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

Hopefully they’ll keep knocking it offline. It would be so great to hear that fucking guy cry about it 🙂

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 25 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Yeah, well, you know, that's just, like, your opinion, man.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 2 weeks ago

Same boat. There is obviously less content, but the user engagement seems more meaningful than getting lost in a sea of comments on some /r/AskReddit mega-thread. Not to mention, not having to deal with nearly as many Trump supporters and anti-LGBTQ people.

Remember /r/GenderCritical? A supposed rad-fem space that’s only purpose was to denigrate any existence of trans people? Or the multiple copies that propped up after it was banned?

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 26 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Throw them out in the middle of the night. Any business that supports them in any way, whether it is serving them food, giving them shelter or otherwise allowing their patronage should be named and shamed.

[–] SayJess@lemmy.blahaj.zone 12 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

The party in control of the house and senate is praising him.

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