Why not just put a trading card between your bike spokes like the good old days?
Zarobi
The actual spiritual karma (simplifying here) is more like, when you hurt people, you are also hurting yourself. These people "avoiding repercussions" as you said, they will never look inside themselves, or reflect on their lives. They're "blind" in a way. Poisoning themselves without realising.
It's not about good things happen to good people. In reality the opposite often happens. But these people, on a deep level, often know exactly all the horrible things they've done. If they ever stop and reflect, it would destroy them. They're far beyond saving.
Karma is about keeping your own inner world clean by doing good things, by your own definition of good. If you do something "good" but it has bad outcomes, your soul still notices. It's like training yourself to be a kind person. Where if you meditate and reflect, you feel calm and at peace. If you do something horrible, you can feel where that sits in your body.
But it's a really complicated topic and difficult to simplify.
I've had a lot of anger problems in my life. I've also been betrayed, lied to, treated like shit, bullied, etc. I'm a lot better now than I used to be but it's still a struggle.
Anger mostly comes from fear. If you trace back the anger to the "source" it usually goes something like:
"I'm angry because they're spreading lies about me. When that happens, my reputation is ruined. When that happens, bad things happen to me."
The worst part is that your instincts are correct, but your reaction won't always help. You can feel trapped and helpless and like there's no viable option left other than violence because nobody is listening to you.
You can't put out or squash this fire, it's a part of you. We're deeply wounded people, as you say in your post. You have to "transform" it into "cold anger" instead of "hot anger". In my above example, this could look like saying:
"No, you're wrong about me and I don't appreciate what you're saying."
Then either leaving, or putting up a wall and refusing to engage in a discussion until they're willing to meet you half way. Use the anger as fuel to burn away any guilt or shame or obligation. People like to play with fire, it's a fun game to them. Good luck with your anger management my friend.
I'm in the same boat. I found that I just had to buy and play a bunch of games I didn't like. I only buy games on 70% discount or more for that reason.
For example, I love City management games, so I thought I'd like Against the Storm... But the roguelike elements completely ruined that game for me and I hate it. As a counter point I usually hate logic puzzle games, but I loved Artisan of Glimmith because it has a "check your work" hint system that doesn't feel too much like cheating. You really can't tell if you'll like a game before you try it unfortunately.
I finally am playing DOOM Eternal this week. Really good game actually. It's a bit exhausting though so I'm chipping away at it one mission at a time.
Honestly the best example I can think of is to secretly record a conversation between you and someone else, and listen to it later. Voice is good, video is better. You'll notice all kinds of things you don't in the moment. Tone, timing, stutters, body language, etc. Then really meditate on who you are and how you want to present to others.
Remember that you can't always change everything... Sometimes you have to accept certain aspects of yourself and work with what you can actually change. Personally I never tried to change anything like that, I'd rather just be authentic, but understand what that actually means and that not everybody will like me.
Something interesting and anecdotal. We get a lot of Indian immigrants in my area, and they're primarily vegetarian. But as soon as they move here, they become anaemic, because the lentils etc grown in our soil doesn't have enough nutrients for survival. They have to start taking supplements. I'm not sure why that is, but it makes me wonder if people would be more willing to be vegetarian here if it was actually viable nutritionally.
I noticed a bunch of my comments staying at 1 view forever because some keyword tripped an A.I. to shadow ban it indefinitely... I was so mad
I feel called out lol
I got banned for accidentally using "far right extremist terminology" lol. I'm still not entirely sure what I did wrong
I'm a recent refugee and it just continued to get worse and worse. This week I was just like fuck it, I'm done. I looked up "Reddit alternative" and StumbledUpon the fediverse. Loving it so far. Actually communicating with real humans is something I didn't realise I missed so much.
I still remember when I saw the Mona Lisa in person. Everyone was facing the opposite direction, using selfie sticks to take a photo of themselves with the tiny painting. Just around the corner was an entire wall sized breathtaking artwork. I think that about sums up humanity.