I accept my responsibility in how things have turned out. I would feel absolutely horrible and would be wrought with guilt for my entire life if it had come down to a single vote, but I would not have voted for either Kamala or Trump even if I had gone to the polls.
I understand that makes me responsible in a very small way for Trump winning and I don't like it, but I accept that. It was a risk I was willing to take in February when I decided not to vote.
Gaza wasn't why I decided not to vote at all, the disconnect between voter and politician and the way queer issues were completely abandoned this election were why I didn't vote. If Kamala had said she would end our alliance with Israel if they didn't stop killing civilians she still wouldn't have gotten my vote because I wasn't casting one to begin with.
Any innocent death is unacceptable. If under Trump every single Palestinian in Gaza would be killed and under Kamala a single old man would die, I still would make the same choice.
That old man has just as much right to live as anyone else, just because he is the only casualty that doesn't make his life any less valuable or gives someone any more right to kill him.
I am truly sorry this is the outcome we have gotten and that my actions have played a small part in how things have unfolded. But I do not regret my choice not to vote.