little_water_bear

Thank you for posting this! While I have no interest in joining a Discord server, I really enjoy seeing all these amazing dishes. They all look really good and are a great source of inspiration!

Oh, ok, I get what you are saying.
Well, unfortunately those are problems of a caliber that I wouldn't be able to solve for you. Nor do I think that anybody else here can.

A (somewhat vague) answer for your first point might be that you need to change your perspective. But that is easier said than done and I don't want to pretend that I know how shitty your live might actually is.

For your second point, it is at least very good that you were able to recognize bad content on your own. Many people fail that.
You could try to find drastically different videos from different groups of people. Again, I know this is easier said than done.

I think most people on Lemmy are strictly against religion, so I don't think you will find much help in that regard here.
Maybe as a starting point, you could try to find resources from a totally different group of people. Depending on your exact questions you might want to watch videos about what people of other religions might have to say about that.
Like, if you want to know more about something from the old testament you could try to watch videos from jews, or if you have questions about Jesus you could look up what the muslims have to say about that.

I wish you all the best! Try to endure until you know, what it is you can strive for.

Why would you even want to live such a long life? If you believe in an eternal life after death in heaven or hell, wouldn't you hope to die soon, as long as you don't live a sinful life (which includes not dying on purpose)? So that you can stop working in this hard life and finally enjoy paradise?

If you don't want to trust people in churches near you, you can try to slowly gather all the answers you want on your own from the internet. But be careful with this!
For one, there are many more possibilities to get the wrong answers online than in local communities. So it can easily happen to fall in deep rabbit holes of stuff that won't benefit you.
And, it can be really overwhelming to sort out information about such topics online. So please, take things slowly. I don't think that your god expects you to be perfectly informed in a matter of days, weeks or even months.

If you are able to slowly explore the answers to whatever questions you might have, you will most likely find everything you need.
Just by watching YouTube videos alone, one could spend thousands upon thousands of hours educating oneself about all this stuff. But again, be careful with that. Take small steps.

Regarding your original question, Nemo has already given you a good answer. I want to add that if you believe in heaven and hell, why would you care if you efforts are rewarded in this life? Wouldn't you try to "be as good as you can", no matter how others react to that? Would your god not reward you after your death accordingly and punish those who treated you unfairly, if they truly deserve punishment? So why even care? If you believe in a god that eventually brings justice to everyone, just try to be as good of a person as you can be. Whatever this exactly means for you.

It will be. Islamic events are scheduled by a lunar calendar, which has less days in a year than our solar calendars. So things like the fasting in Ramadan and the pilgrimage are about 11 days earlier each year. So in like 12 years the Hajj should be during February.

I'm no expert, but I think the events the pilgrims attend to are strictly tied to the time of day, meaning they can't be rescheduled to be in the night.