don’t want to be fucking led
Unless you are going out there and campaigning or operationally actually doing some-fucking-thing; you absolutely do want someone to lead and fulfill your desires. If you personally are not making it happen then you want someone else to take the lead on it.
You are allowed to have a belligerent sense of independence; just don't fool yourself.
And in 18 years?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=py37IFuKxYw