Kyrgizion

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[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 1 points 13 minutes ago

Whoever wrote that was spot on though. Source: not a rooster but I have been called a cock before.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 4 points 4 hours ago

Of course, they'll be able to do tremendous amounts of irreparable damage to society.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 53 points 10 hours ago* (last edited 4 hours ago) (4 children)

The amounts of copium in this thread are extinction-level.

Everything you just said is 100% valid and you are simply correct.

The thing is, it's not a measure of a healthy mind to thrive in a profoundly sick society where the worst of the worst have won long ago.

There's this thing called depressive realism which posits that depressed people, by and large, perceive reality much closer to how it really is than neurotypical people.

Essentially, "normal" people have an (innate or learned) positivity bias. Which is usually a good thing. People like us are the outliers.

But positivity bias in a world where it's actually harmful is another thing. The majority of people are walking headlong into their own extinction while going "Ehh, it's not so bad", while we should ALL be positively irate and picketing the homes (not companies) of our owner class 24/7.

But it hasn't happened yet and at this point I don't know how bad things need to get before people realize what's going on.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Touché.

I meant clearly easily attainable by others. If I start comparing myself to them, well, it's like comparing a '97 Pinto vs a 2022 EV.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

Something tells me he'll be just fine regardless.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

I will, thanks! No matter how long it takes, I will never give up on him.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 15 points 1 day ago (3 children)

So this is what they spent development time on rather than gameplay and story. Figures.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

Ugh, that site has phone cancer.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 14 points 1 day ago (1 children)

A "good" thing from a bad thing: my 6 year old computer monitor decided to croak today. As it's currently black friday deals, I managed to order a new one fairly cheap-o.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 16 points 1 day ago
[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 5 points 1 day ago (3 children)

That's the approach we're trying to take. He has a psych appointment today as well. I only hope he "gets" it before he does something really damaging.

Apart from that I constantly offer to hang out, play games with him or whatnot (he used to love playing Subnautica together) but nothing seems to interest him at all. As someone who also suffered a lot at that age, it pains me so much to seem him go through similar and getting thrown so many helplines and not taking a single one. I would've moved heaven & earth back then for even one of them.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world -5 points 1 day ago (4 children)

People with depression often fall into this trap. You set a standard you can’t possibly reach and then get upset you aren’t reaching said impossible standard.

Nah, plenty of us set teeny, tiny, attainable goals and then still consistently fail to reach them for decades. It's called being totally inept or an idiot. Unfortunately there's no cure except switft application of lead suppositories.

 

 

Guess I'll die 😬

 

I'm 40 years old, in a crappy job without prospects despite degrees, and I have 0 friends.

I used to have a grand total of 2 friends before Covid, but then we lost contact. I've tried to rekindle, but all effort was onesided so I stopped.

I'm a lifelong spineless people pleaser despite lots of therapy, and the ironic thing is that this turns people off of you instead of having them like you.

At this point I don't see any reasons to continue trying.

If I had one wish in life, it would be to be a stereotypical asshole with actual self esteem - those are the kinds of people who seem to be anle to reach all of their goals and have others worship the ground they walk on.

But as for me, I'm so turned off by other people in general that I would probably be morbidly amused to read, oh I dunno, that Moscow nuked Kiev (or vive versa), that Jerusalem is burning, or that my hometown was wiped away by a hurricane.

Not to be "edgy". It's emotionally debilitating, and to be clear I don't enjoy/wish for human suffering.

I've just become as indifferent to it as the world seems to be to me. Simple tit for tat.

I'm tired. Kinda hoped I wouldn't wake up from my anaesthesia today. Ah well.

 

EDIT; I can't reply to everyone individually but thanks for all the suggestions! Opiates are out of the question, doctors here will only prescribe those in terms of absolutely extreme suffering or end of life care. I also don't particularly feel interested in developing a hard drug habit. Diclofenac and such are available but also only on separate prescriptions, I'd have to visit another doctor for that. I'm well stocked on paracetamol & ibuprofen, and apart from that, lots of ice cream, pudding & soup :)

Also, since a fair few people seem to doubt the veracity of my story, here's the 22 extracted teeth (the other 10 were already gone in previous extractions).

 

I'm a 40-year old dude with... let's say, plenty of issues. Most of them stemming from childhood but adulthood has been equally painful so far.

I've been looking into self-help a lot lately and notice that many techniques tell you to focus on a person whom you consider an example, a role model you want to emulate.

The problem is, I don't have any. None. My own father was an abusive alcoholic who offed himself when I was 15. My mother did her best but was a neurotic wreck with many untreated mental health issues of her own. She eventually found a new partner whom I looked up to for many years since he was finally that role model I thought I needed.

But a few years ago he tried to seduce my own partner (which luckily didn't succeed), resulting in my esteem for him immediately imploding completely.

In the greater world, outside of my own little atmosphere, there aren't really any actors or business people or coworkers, bosses, teachers... that I've looked up to or ever had any kind of relationship with. Sure, there are many people I admire for whatever they may have contributed to humanity, but that doesn't mean they're some kind of shining example in every area of their lives.

I guess I'm just trying to communicate that I'm a 40-year old dude with daddy issues and I have no idea how to healthily cope with it or even fix it.

Before anyone asks, I'm on a waiting list for professional treatment. Been a month, 5 more to go (in a best case scenario).

How did others cope with this specifically? Did you have any insights in what ideas to emulate or how to handle certain difficulties in life through the lens of a mentor? Is it even desirable or is it just another crutch for the weak-minded to cope with, well, being weak-minded?

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