I use manual focus as much as practical. Certainly whenever I am doing close or macro shots. Or shots where I don’t feel like fighting the camera to get what I want.
But the issue is that manufacturers don’t want to using manual focus. They give you the possibility, pretending to be magnanimous, but then they remove the things that made it easy back before 1985. Most modern lenses don’t really have easy to use focus rings, and the camera viewfinders make it by default difficult to judge focus. And on mine, if the camera is set to use AF, if I turn it off by an override button, it will turn it on again after a time. Annoying.
That said, I use focus peaking, set pretty high, to help.
This. Sorry you aren’t enjoying having to do what you don’t prefer, but that’s what life is. Being a professional anything is all about having to do it. Enjoy it not really mattering while you can.