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Heyo! Stupid question, but I've been double-guessing myself on this and would love some external input on things.

I've been in group therapy since October (so like, 5 or 6 sessions so far). It's an open mixed group, so people of any type of mental illness are free to come and go. The general aim of the group is Behavioral Therapy and it's led by two psychologists. Sessions consist of a short powerpoint presentation followed by worksheets to be filled out in groups of 3-4 people. Generally I think the topics of the sessions, like time management, emotional regulation, stress management etc. are chosen well and do cover a broad spectrum of knowledge.

But, my issue is that I just get completely emotionally flooded and on edge whenever I go there. Which is normal for me, I start crying every time I get put on the spot about my feelings anyways (I've cried every single time I have ever had to talk to a doctor about anything regarding my mental health). But I kinda assumed it might get better? Like I can choke down the crying for the session at least (if I don't get asked about anything bad), but I always cry on the way back home and it's starting to be pretty distressing. Like I consistently lose the latter half of the day to headaches and recovering, and the amount of times I wake up due to nightmares definitely has gone up significantly since starting therapy.

Another thing is that a new person joined the group, and she has a particularly dramatic inflexion in her voice that sounds exactly like my mother whenever she's fishing for sympathy and being the victim. It's really not this person's fault that they talk like that (she's probably a perfectly fine person!) but I do struggle to not flinch whenever she speaks. Recently we also got put into the same group and I completely zoned out and went unresponsive when she tried talking to me 😅 I didn't mean to offend her really, and I'm not sure why I would react like that, but it just kind of happened..

I'm really trying to work on this kind of emotional reactivity, but the part I'm missing is that within therapy, they've explained the model of [situation -> thought -> action], so being aware of situations that bring you into a specific thought pattern and then re-examining that thought pattern can help shape different actions. I'm neither sure which situations upset me like this nor am I sure what sort of thought would contribute to it, as I don't really have any thoughts when I choke up like that. It just seems like a random bodily reaction that floods me with bad feelings (and I can't even elaborate beyond "bad", even if I know all the emotions I can't really name specifics that I experience).

I know it's dumb, but like, maybe there's a type of therapy that could work better than behavioral therapy? Or do I just need to stick it out and continue going? My insurance has approved weekly sessions until April. There's also the issue that I did get an Adhd diagnosis recently and am currently calling around to find a doctor who is willing to prescribe meds (it's complicated here in Germany). So my struggles might just be an adhd thing?

How have your experiences with therapy been? Are you supposed to feel better after every session? Is it supposed to be bad at first but get better with time?

You can take the sweater off when you're not sleeping, but it has to be on at night no matter the temperature.

I think I would demand like 200k, just for the discomfort from the scratchiness. I already sleep with a winter blanket all year round so I wouldn't mind how warm it would get.

because they don't have a state issued photographic ID, which you need to book airplane seats.

In 1809, the Czech invented mathematics. But they kept the secret to themselves, making all other countries dependent on them for calculations.

Which is why all businesses needed to have a Czech person on hand to process payments. Which is why we say "I'd like the Czech please" in Restaurants and "I'd like to Czech out" in hotels to this day.

Royals aren't exactly the most trainable snakes and Revy still isn't super comfy with moving very far, but she's great at orienting towards the target and did really well today 🥰 I'm very proud of her!

If you wanna know more about Target Training, check out Lori Torrini on Youtube! She's pioneering the whole concept, and really really knowledgeable about snake behavior and cooperative care 💕

I'm so confused, is this a new thing?? I was looking for German People's experiences with Narcolepsy and Google suggested a Reddit thread about athletes with Narcolepsy. It was in German, so I just assumed it was a German author, but it quickly became weird when the author said "you" instead of "y'all" and mentioned upping his running miles every week.

I checked at the top any yep, there was a little "See Original" button that translated the post to English.

Am I alone in thinking that this is kinda weird and icky? Like this are people speaking about their personal experiences, just pulling their words through automatic translation can kill so much meaning and context. Not even to mention that it makes the search engine result useless for me, as I was specifically looking for German posts :/

There's been a noticeable change in her face shape in the past few weeks! She's around 440g and almost a year old now, so she's almost a subadult.

In comparison, here's what her face looked like just a few weeks ago:

The weird creature that steals her poop has now stolen part of her door (she was struggling to fit through it after her last meal)

The audacity!

They're this weird yellowish-blue and I think that's pretty neat

Revy's going into blue 🐱

She's really needing it too, her last shed was at around 240g bodyweight, now she's well above 330g and was starting to get some pretty visible scale spread.

Revy decided to dig on exactly the right spot, pulled on the cord to her temperature sensor and displaced it tonight. Now her terrarium is sitting at an uncomfortable 31.5°C ambient temperature on the hot side. The cold side is still okay at like 28°C, but it's slowly creeping up.

Wouldn't be a problem, if I wasn't 650km away on vacation. Or if I hadn't specifically decided against leaving a key to my apartment with a friend or neighbor because I didn't want to bother them. Completely my fault lol

Anyways, the flight back home is 100€ and the 10 hour bus drive back to my vacation spot is 50€. I wouldn't have bothered to go back, but this was literally the first night of the trip and I have 5 more days planned. I was visiting my fiance who I haven't seen in 2 months because he had to move across the country for work 🥲

update: the baby has been rescued! She seems perfectly fine and unbothered, although a bit warm to the touch.

update2: Man, she sure is out to worry me. I took her out to cool down while I adjust and recalibrate the sensor. When I let her back in, she crawled straight to her basking spot (32-35°C surface day temp, 28°C surface night temp) and stayed there until like 3am. Wth does that even mean??