Ask Lemmy

I was a kid, can barely talk, didn't even speak a word of English, I was still in mainland China, probably in kindergarden or something, no internet access (too poor and live in slums), bored as fuck when at home, barely any entertainment, I don't think I had much toys, if I did, I broke them, my parents would leave me and my older brother* at home and my parents warned me not to climb near the windows (lived live around 5 stories high), there's a "safety cage" around the windows so like I wouldn't fall out or anything, but still I had intrusive thoughts, also told me not to touch the electricity stuff so I don't get zapped to death, also don't touch the plant fertilizer stuff because... poisonus to humans or something... (lived in the city, but there are houseplants and there are people that grow stuff on land in a mountain nearby).

I vaguely remember Mr. Bean, 猫和老鼠 (Cat and Mouse... aka: Tom and Jerry), and um... yea I don't remember much, since I kinda suppressed the memories because something bad happens around this time.

So... shit is about to go down...

So basically, because... you know... I was a kid, I kinda touched my older brother's toys... he's like 5 yeard older than me btw... and I'm not even sure if those count as "his" because resource in the house is kinda pooled, I viewed it as communal property (unrelated to the political-economic system btw, it just my worldview as a child, since my parents always used the words “你哋”/“你们” (you in plural form) when on the topic of buying toys and stuff, so I assumed its shared).

So I think this is how it goes: I might've touched "his" toys, he got mad at me, he used plastic zip ties and he fucking tied me up. WHAT THE FUCK?!? Also "CPS" isn't a thing, so I was just his hostage for a FEW HOURS, until parents got come. WHAT THE FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Also dude plays with fire in the house (separate incident), he pours white-out liquod onto a piece of paper, then IGNITE IT ON FIRE. My retrospective reaction rn: 😱 Like how the f we didn't die? Concrete/cement buildings is probably a factor, if it was a wooden house, it's GGs.

And then shit went down when one time, we had fight, he was chasing me around the house, so I ran and went to find my mother, grandmother was at home but bitch didn't stop shit. I could've gotten kidnaoped that day. Cops were searching the neighborhood but they didn't expect me to take a bus all the fucking way to my mother's workplace. (Bus drivers didn't give a fuck lol), I couldn't find her, so then I later came back home. I missed a few stops and then I had to backtrack. My most lonely moment in my life, and my first Adverse Childhood Experience. I wasn't even 8 years old at the time.

*For context, I was not supposed to be born, my mother violated the "One Child Policy" and gave birth to me.

God damn, my older brother has the "Little Emperor Syndrome", got so jealous that other kids were their parents sole attention, but my parents had to split attention, dude was probably so furious he didn't get all the attention he could've gotten had I not been born, since that's the situation in almost every other family.

Wrong spawn location, I need to restart this game, it sucks. NORWAY PLSSSS 😭

Actually fuck Earth, give me a Type III civillization, and PLS NO "HIVE MIND" SPECIES, I HATE THOSE.