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Dopamine

My smartphone. Unfortunately.

Coffee

Sweets. I have a huge sweet tooth.

Internet...

But also constantly thinking about past memories... nostalgia?

Reading academic books that freak people out when they come over to my place and get me labeled as a pretentious douche.

Going out to eat. I try to limit myself to 3 times a week.

Porn, Video Games and Youtube Shorts. The Holy Trifecta of Loneliness .

Thinking.

I'm not good at it, but I do it often.

Staying up long in the evening. Might sound a bit weird but there's a thing called bedtime procrastination, and I'm very bad with it. I'll try so hard to fix my sleeping schedule but the next evening I'll again be like "nah we can do half an hour more" which turns into multiple hours, which turns into another day with no energy. However in the evening I'll feel awake again and the cycle just continues. I'm going to talk to a doctor about it next.

cum

Soda for me.
I love it.
I hate it.

I just wish so much that there were half sugar sodas out there. All the synthetic sugars of the diet or 0 calorie ones taste like garbage.

I've been cutting the ones I drink by pouring a can of eltzer water in with the regular can of soda, but I think even that tastes a little strange compared to just watering things down.

My computer, in full working order, with Internet access.

If any of that goes wrong, I'm in a very bad place.

Blue cheese. Specifically double cream blue cheese spread on triscuits.

I used to think blue cheese tasted like play-doh...

Hobbies, I can't get enough of them, gotta collect 'em all. Every couple months it's a new fixation.

Food

Weed got me through the hell that was last year, and it sure as shit looks like it's gonna be just as useful this year.

Caffeine, I love it.

I’d say coffee, because I have a low level dependency on morning caffeine and high level emotional dependence. I’d say alcohol, because I tend to binge drink weekends.

But really, it’s my smartphone. I can cut alcohol and caffeine out easily, but I can’t lose the smartphone, which means it’s always there ready for me to dissociate.

Nicotine, and to a very mild degree alcohol

Music, I NEED it on nearly all the time or I’ll drive myself insane repeating parts of songs in my head. Only turn it off to sleep

Food

It might be an eating disorder

I avoid talking to my therapist about it because I don't want to confront the truth.

Edging

Video games

Doomscrolling

computer/internet

Opening outlook, checking my email, closing outlook. Repeat.

Also weed and lemmy

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