LaunchesKayaks

I was exposed to a bad PTSD trigger on Saturday and dissociated for a bit and have been in a state of derealization since. Now that my therapist helped me not panic about this feeling, I've found myself curious about how other people have experienced this.

For me, everything seems muted. People and their expressed emotions, colors, general vibes in different situations etc. Everything is just wrong and unsettling. It's like everything just isn't existing enough to feel tangible. Iam fully aware that my perception is very wrong because I've asked people if things seem off at all and they've said no. I was very scared for like two days until I was able to book an appointment with my therapist and now I'm not as scared and the derealization doesn't feel as disconcerting, but it's still there. Hoping things will be back to normal when I wake up in the morning.

We did a whole lotta training on the ground today, but ended with a brief ten minute ride around the roundpen.

I think the trick to getting her to cooperate well in the saddle is to make her jog out some energy before tacking, make the process of tacking very slow so she can adjust to the stuff on her, then making her jog a little with the tack on and adjusting as needed.

The round pen is also walled so she couldn't gawk at every distraction which helped keep her focusedl.

I stumbled after dismounting and fell onto the sand in the roundpen. Sandy checked on me of course lol.

My pixel 7 is shitting the bed and I am considering upgrading and just installing graphene immediately on the new phone as part of my degoogling journey.

Is there anything I need to know about this? I work in IT, so I'm tech savvy. This is my first time installing graphene, however.

I'd be upgrading to a pixel 10 probably.

My carrier is verizon

I absolutely adore the field she's in.

I also made a YouTube for her if y'all wanna watch vids.

Here's a link to the latest vid

Sandy didn't give a shit about the ball I got her

I love gossip. I almost exclusively gossip with my mom and I listen to tea being spilled far more often than I spill it myself.

She loved the magic massage man (the "chiro")and fell asleep while he and I were chatting after she was finished.

There was no quackery. He literally just helped her stretch really well and massaged the knots out of her muscles so she could move better. No joint popping or nothin crazy. I watched him treat two other horses to make sure he wasn't full of shit before I let him touch Sandy.

I will be doing solo horseback riding soon and my mom wants me to have something on my person during the rides so she can check on me and my location without me needing to answer a text or phone call. It's purely a safety thing and exclusively for me when I'm riding alone. Outside of riding, the tech will be turned off and stored with my riding stuff.

What would y'all do in this kinda scenario? I value the opinions of the people here in regards to tech more than the search results I was getting when I looked it all up.

Edit: some of y'all are upset about horse chiropractor. Called the dude up and he is an equine physiotherapist and people just call him "the chiropractor"

I was going to have a trainer ride her today, but she was too sore for it. I didn't even saddle her due to how sensitive her back is right now.