If the photos always look bad to you then…… has something in life imposed perfectionism in you? If your brain works like that then, quite possibly, you’ll never take a “good” photo because, well, you’ll always find the faults. So, there something deeper at work here, I think.
I take photos of aircraft.. some work some don’t, for a variety of reasons. But I live and learn… I don’t stop because some photos don’t work out.
The want…. I’m interested in aircraft, but every day (or every time I go) is different… the weather, the lighting, the challenge of finding a different view. Also I see it as documentary rather than getting the perfect photo. Sure, I try and do it as well as I can, but it’s not a problem if it doesn’t work out perfectly. You can’t guarantee where the aircraft are going to be when they take off, for example.
I was out today and the lighting was…. variable. Even if the light wasn’t great I could get a feel for what works and what doesn’t. And I’d rather have the photo of the plane than no photo.
As for your perfectionism, I think you may need to see someone about that…. wanting to do something well is one thing but if it controls your life to the extent that an enjoyable hobby or pastime is ruined for you then you’ve got much deeper problems.