TeraByteMarx

joined 7 months ago
 

Can't shake the pervasive feeling that every person I pass is a threat to my wife, that we might get attacked for being trans. Being around people was never easy even when I wasn't visibly queer and trans. People are exhausting and I don't trust their stated motivations. I don't like the way we're looked at, when I do make eye contact with someone I regularly see extremely negative emotions written on their face. Feel unsafe and incompetent and anger starts to build up.

I'm four months on T this month and the decision to start was pretty significantly influenced by these feelings and the fear it would only continue to get worse. It feels impossible to begin to start interacting with people again, logically I know it's the next necessary step but anxiety, trauma make it super easy to avoid indefinitely. Does anyone relate or have advice?

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 5 points 2 months ago (1 children)

What if the dead plants are the friends we made along the way.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 points 2 months ago

I think some of us could do with both. Too bad the only psych who spoke to the heart of trauma was private. O well

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 points 2 months ago

Do you know any international politics or national policy? As in what the country, in hand with the complicity of the middle class, has done to both it's own citizens and the rest of the world? For the entirety of its 300 year history?

No?

Time to start learning perhaps. The people who do know are the people who will help you in crisis.

There's less than nothing in it for me to change your mind about anything. You're on Lemmy and you've had a great deal of opportunity to do so on your own time.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 1 points 2 months ago

I'm sorry you think you're living trans friends lend to whatever argument you're trying to make. According to the government they even exist anymore. The Republicans have been calling for blood openly for many years. It's going to get a lot worse than a downturn in the economy and it's not going to get bettter if people don't start to see the bigger picture.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 0 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I won't police my thoughts, opinions and language to appease liberals and centrists and I won't trust anyone who thinks that our struggle rests on that kind of approach. Unless they gutterally get it they are not my ally.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com -3 points 2 months ago (8 children)

I'm glad you're losing money, it brings me joy to see the middle class finally freaking out, even if it's for reasons that are utterly selfish and blind to the real struggles minorities have been facing for decades. Maybe if you buy gold instead?

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 points 2 months ago (2 children)

I mean, good. The country voted in a fascist on a policy of trans genocide and it takes a tanking economy for any kind of mass protests to take place. The government was killing my friends long before Trump was elected but that didn't effect your safe little bubble. If the violence has to be explicit, then so be it.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com -1 points 2 months ago (19 children)

Fuck your stocks. How many trans friends have you lost and did you even really care until it started affecting the economy. Fuck your stocks.

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 4 points 3 months ago

I'm with you but it's a generational thing. Are you a millennial?

[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 4 points 4 months ago (1 children)

Not parent, just dysfunctional child of parent.

This would wreck my brain a bit trying to play a role that's seemingly immensely important to my parents.

 
 
[–] TeraByteMarx@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 points 4 months ago

Idiocracy is trash for babies, up your socially critical media game.

The first pandemic is still killing disabled people.

 

Anyone else unnerved by the whole 'continuing as normal' vibe and also guy on stage chanting "they're not like us" to crowd that effectively voted in a fascist and rapist who also is sitting in the crowd. (I know who Kendrick Lamar is and am a fan of hip hop) "The revolution will be televised" what the actual fuck bro :(

 
 
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