Before he died suddenly of an aneurysm, my former psychiatrist was fascinated with me.

"I'm not trapped in here with you, you're trapped in here with me."

SCP-294-J is to be monitored by a Foundation appointed psychiatrist. Once every three months SCP-294-J is to be administered all tests from the Mu-9 battery and the results logged in file SCP-294-J-A. Observations not otherwise contained in the Mu-9 tests should be annotated with extreme attention to detail. This is to be presented to the entity as a psychological therapy and evaluation session for the purposes of legally administering prescription medication for a mundane ADHD diagnosis. The testing and administration personnel must take extreme care to maintain the facade of a psychiatric medical office, and ensure the entity believes their diagnosis and all associated medical activities reinforce the entity's belief that their diagnosis and evaluation are for the purpose of treating their ADHD.

If at any time during testing SCP-294-J makes any indication of doubt or suspicion of their ADHD diagnosis, they are to be given a supplementary medication of specially formulated amnestic compound B-294-J-S1.

If at any point during evaluation SCP-294-J is not showing its typical personality traits (see description), they are to be immediately sedated, given a 3cc injection of compound 789, and given one dose of specially formulated amnestic B-294-J-S2.

SCP-294-J is to be given a treatment regimen of compound 789 tablets, disguised as an ADHD medication. The distribution of compound 789 is to be performed by a member of Foundation medical staff to be embedded in the preferred pharmacy of SCP-294-J.

Additional monitoring is to be performed via the inclusion of micro surveillance cameras and microphones at places SCP-294-J frequents, including but not limited to their domicile, place of employment, and any educational instructions they attend.

If at any time it is believed that SCP-294-J is not taking their medication, demonstrates the usage (consciously or unconsciously) of their anonymous abilities, deviates from their typical personality traits, or otherwise demonstrates behavior, personality traits, or beliefs outside the parameters this described, MTF Verdant-8, Doctor's Helpers, is to be deployed to sedate and isolate them for supplementary treatment. If necessary the use of tranquilizing darts, sedative gas, or other weaponized non-lethal chemical incapacitating compound is permitted.

Under no circumstances is violence of any kind to be used by personal, including MTF operatives, on SCP-294-J.

In the event SCP-294-J is subjected to violence, MTF-Verdant 9 is to respond to the location of the SCP, and if possible incapacitate it using approved methods. If SCP-294-J is not able to be incapacitated, the MTF should instead focus on securing the safety of nearby civilians and, if necessary, the disabling of any persons involved in said violence. The monitoring doctor should be immediately notified of the situation and escorted to SCP-294-J, where they will need to calm the entity sufficiently to permit sedation.

Once SCP-294-J has been sedatedv and secured, the doctor will be responsible for detailing and ensuring their medical meds are met and amnestics are administered, with an appropriate cover story provided as they deem appropriate.

I have a similar relationship with my neurologist. I’ve been seeing him for over 15 years for stabby appointments. That is to say I get something like 60-80 injections every time I see him. He isn't in a position to give me tests, but he does use the things I say to help his other patients.

Its botox injections for migraine, and he’s one of the first people to pick up doing it, so he's seen some shit. Nothing I say surprises him at all, unless its FUN. So early on when my skin was still reacting to it big time, i told him i sort of liked that I looked like a klingon after my appointments, and thats what I always told people because I needed to go to a brewery after to make the pain suck less.

Im also almost always on board to be a training pin cushion for residents. So much that if the resident doesn't understand what I’m offering them (a willing participant to their education; a unicorn), he just says “if you are ready to practice injections, she’s offering, and she doesn’t flinch”.

Because I’m used to it. I try not to flinch because that’s worse. I’m pretty upbeat about the whole thing. And I recently found out he has patients who scream about it every single spot. Holy fuck. I can’t imagine being that sensitive. So now i understand why he admitted to his existential crisis to me. (“I feel like I’m going to hell for causing people such pain as part of my job” he’s retirement age or older, so understandable thought)

Very mean the snacks were only for children!

I wouldn't say that nature is cruel, but amoral and chaotic, with a focus on trying all the venues for survival, whith some for moral beings like us, seemingly cruel.

When I did experimentation, I often focused on minimizing harm. I also try doing as much good as I am doing "bad". That helps me deal with this.

In science, they at least die for reasons. I hope I can feel as good about my end.

The Truman Show has expanded to essentially the entire planet, following the proliferation of black box social media algorithms.

Listening to dead math!